So I’m trying this thing. Over there. The Gazette. I’m drawing lines. Differentiating my mama blog from the ‘business end’.
I named this blog Les Petits Gazette (“The Littles” Gazette), with the intention of making it a kind of magazine for mamas. What manifested was a personal blog because to be honest, that’s all I could handle at the time. As time went by I started getting emails from Etsy stores and businesses asking if I’d like to try their products and write about them on the blog. I turned down the ones I didn’t feel passionate about but I accepted a few that I did and tried to incorporate them organically into my blog posts. I’m excited to keep working with brands that I love, either on the blog or on the Gazette.
With the separation, you might notice me getting a little more serious on the mama blog (OooOooOoo!) Because here’s the thing. Until now, I’ve been writing a little bit guarded. One of the biggest things I’ve been guarded about is my depression. When I had Finn in 2012, I had no idea what I was in for. It all started getting really weird the minute we told people I was pregnant. I had no idea what to expect from the people in my life. I had no idea that my own friends and family would judge me. Or that friends would be jealous of my pregnancy.
I had no idea how painful childbirth could be, that I would have trouble nursing. I had no idea that I would be so affected by lack of sleep, and I never thought in a million years that I could be effected by post-natal depression. All of those things happened and all of them were shocking to me.
But when I started opening up to close friends, they all told me that they had experienced the same things. I learned that others felt judged and lost friends to jealousy. I wasn’t alone in feeling guilt about my post-natal depression and the effect it might have had on Finn. Most of us have at some point, felt overwhelmed, isolated, depressed, guilty or scared out of our gourds (or all of those things) and we’re not talking about it outside of therapist’s offices and dimly lit lounge rooms after a second martini.
I want to bring the mama stories into the open, starting with my own. And if you’re okay with that, grab a ginger ale.
So, changes. I’ll be sharing a little more of the crappy side of being a mama. And, as well as the business end of the Gazette, I’ll be launching “Biographie” – a space where YOU can tell your TTC, pregnancy, miscarriage, loss, childbirth and parenting stories. I wanted to create a space for women to share their real experiences of motherhood without fear of judgement.
If you have a story you’d like to share, I’d love to hear it.
In the meantime, tell me what you think about the new layout – is it completely confusing? I’d honestly love to know what you think and hear your ideas on how I can make it better.
This is my baby alpaca weaving that will be going into the Les Petits Gazette shop. Another change… XO